OCD - Inner Demons

[NumberAde]

Never use Google for a diagnosis. Every healthcare professional will tell you that.
Websites will always give the worst case scenario, no matter how unlikely, they do it to cover their arses.
PM me if you need to.

I may take you up on this tomorrow Glos. It's really appreciated.

 

[NumberAde]

Why don't you PM Glos. He's a Clinical Practioner at a GP's Surgery.

Yeah - I'm gonna get in touch with Glos tomorrow. I cannot face it today.

 

[Dr. Lecter]

Yeah - I'm gonna get in touch with Glos tomorrow. I cannot face it today.

Just do whatever you got to do Ade.

Look after yourself mate. If you need to just keep chatting to us lot in the meantime then crack on.

 

[Glos Blue]

I may take you up on this tomorrow Glos. It's really appreciated.

No problem, happy to help if I can.

 

[Melvin Udal]

@NumberAde sorry I have not posted alot today. Please reach out as myself and others on here are genuinely concerned and here to listen. OCD is not good, totally irrational and all consuming.

I repeatedly tell myself.

50 years I've suffered, even before OCD was called OCD mate.

Talking absolutely helps. It is an hourly struggle.

Hate OCD.

Stay strong and reach out.

 

[NumberAde]

@NumberAde sorry I have not posted alot today. Please reach out as myself and others on here are genuinely concerned and here to listen. OCD is not good, totally irrational and all consuming.

I repeatedly tell myself.

50 years I've suffered, even before OCD was called OCD mate.

Talking absolutely helps. It is an hourly struggle.

Hate OCD.

Stay strong and reach out.

Cheers Melv - I will mate, when I am feeling stronger.

 

[Arfur Ap Llewellyn Europe]

No problem, happy to help if I can.

What about me?!

I've got issues too. Can you all ring me after you come off the blower to Ade, cheers.

Only jesting of course. I'm feeling about 1 million and two times better than I was say last September.

The sertraline has kept the panic attacks so far away from me, that I'm getting my old confidence back.

Defo keep chatting on here or via PM @NumberAde

Lots of good help available here, then you'll be in a more knowledgeable and relaxed position to ask the Doctors what you really want.

 

[NumberAde]

What about me?!

I've got issues too. Can you all ring me after you come off the blower to Ade, cheers.

Only jesting of course. I'm feeling about 1 million and two times better than I was say last September.

The sertraline has kept the panic attacks so far away from me, that I'm getting my old confidence back.

Defo keep chatting on here or via PM @NumberAde

Lots of good help available here, then you'll be in a more knowledgeable and relaxed position to ask the Doctors what you really want.

Cheers Arf,

Typing a load of that out last night did help me, and I hope it did to you too. I was feeling good until about 1pm when I went back into a tail spin by looking for one answer to a question and all the dominoes came down. I'm trying to remember the positives from the GP I talked to yesterday.

 

[NumberAde]

@NumberAde sorry I have not posted alot today. Please reach out as myself and others on here are genuinely concerned and here to listen. OCD is not good, totally irrational and all consuming.

I repeatedly tell myself.

50 years I've suffered, even before OCD was called OCD mate.

Talking absolutely helps. It is an hourly struggle.

Hate OCD.

Stay strong and reach out.

The thoughts are so intrusive and can happen at any time. There is no rationality. I really appreciate that Melv.

 

[Arfur Ap Llewellyn Europe]

Cheers Arf,

Typing a load of that out last night did help me, and I hope it did to you too. I was feeling good until about 1pm when I went back into a tail spin by looking for one answer to a question and all the dominoes came down. I'm trying to remember the positives from the GP I talked to yesterday.

Dr Google is the worst place you can look at times like these.

For example, when I first got diagnosed with CLL the first search results said I had a mere 5 years left to fuck about on here.

I obviously took it a tad more seriously, and then joined a forum to find out more. That was nearly 10 years ago and I haven't exactly looked after myself since then.

Turns out that although it's currently a Chronic condition (no cure) the treatments have progressed so much it's more akin to diabetes type 1 or asthma.

Regular meds and check ups etc and the jobs a goodun.

So no, don't ever be tempted by the first few results on Google at least.

In fact as has been said, don't use it for that at all.

 

[NumberAde]

Dr Google is the worst place you can look at times like these.

For example, when I first got diagnosed with CLL the first search results said I had a mere 5 years left to fuck about on here.

I obviously took it a tad more seriously, and then joined a forum to find out more. That was nearly 10 years ago and I haven't exactly looked after myself since then.

Turns out that although it's currently a Chronic condition (no cure) the treatments have progressed so much it's more akin to diabetes type 1 or asthma.

Regular meds and check ups etc and the jobs a goodun.

So no, don't ever be tempted by the first few results on Google at least.

In fact as has been said, don't use it for that at all.

You are right. I had a trigger moment just about an hour ago and went to that forum I said I wouldn't go to. Story of a lady whose husband has the same score as me - and cancer.

But, at times I can turn it around - I said "Well, that's her story. For every one like her, there are maybe 3-4-5 people who had the same tests and were fine.

I am glad your condition, although chronic, is treatable. It's amazing how medicine develops - although never fast enough for us, it does progress.

 

[Worse]

You are right. I had a trigger moment just about an hour ago and went to that forum I said I wouldn't go to. Story of a lady whose husband has the same score as me - and cancer.

But, at times I can turn it around - I said "Well, that's her story. For every one like her, there are maybe 3-4-5 people who had the same tests and were fine.

I am glad your condition, although chronic, is treatable. It's amazing how medicine develops - although never fast enough for us, it does progress.

We all have periods of stress in our lives. Emotional and psychological stress is sometimes more disturbing and painful, than physical stress.

My wife died in June, protesting that she had no symptoms, up until the week before she died. She argued with the consultants, refusing to accept that the investigative results were her results.
I was with her when a registrar at the Heath Hospital explained that she had 18 months left. She went into a coma three days later and slipped away four days after that.

She had non-smoking lung cancer, which doesn't always present with normal symptoms.

Within weeks of her death, we found out that three of her four brothers have cancer. Two with prostate, one blood related

The woman who spent hours advising and persuading my wife, to have all the investigations, is my sister who is a senior advanced clinical practioner, at a Midlands hospital.

Shortly before Christmas, she was told that she had stage 4 advanced cancer. She's worked in theatre on the very operation that she's now facing.
The surgeons, who are colleagues and friends, have told her that she has a 10% chance, of getting off the table alive. It's an 11-12 hour operation, with two teams of surgeons.

They can only attempt the operation after she's had two months of very aggressive chemotherapy. Then they've given her two months to get fit for the operation.

So to say that I've been a little stressed of late, is putting it mildly.

 

[Arfur Ap Llewellyn Europe]

We all have periods of stress in our lives. Emotional and psychological stress is sometimes more disturbing and painful, than physical stress.

My wife died in June, protesting that she had no symptoms, up until the week before she died. She argued with the consultants, refusing to accept that the investigative results were her results.
I was with her when a registrar at the Heath Hospital explained that she had 18 months left. She went into a coma three days later and slipped away four days after that.

She had non-smoking lung cancer, which doesn't always present with normal symptoms.

Within weeks of her death, we found out that three of her four brothers have cancer. Two with prostate, one blood related

The woman who spent hours advising and persuading my wife, to have all the investigations, is my sister who is a senior advanced clinical practioner, at a Midlands hospital.

Shortly before Christmas, she was told that she had stage 4 advanced cancer. She's worked in theatre on the very operation that she's now facing.
The surgeons, who are colleagues and friends, have told her that she has a 10% chance, of getting off the table alive. It's an 11-12 hour operation, with two teams of surgeons.

They can only attempt the operation after she's had two months of very aggressive chemotherapy. Then they've given her two months to get fit for the operation.

So to say that I've been a little stressed of late, is putting it mildly.

Really sorry to hear that Dai.

What a shitty time you've had recently.

I can only offer the platitude of stay strong brother

 

[Popeye]

Yeah - I'm gonna get in touch with Glos tomorrow. I cannot face it today.

I can vouch for Glos, top bloke and he’ll help you no end
Just don’t mention strip clubs and nuggles.

Buf genuinely he’ll get point you in the right direction mate.

 

[Worse]

Really sorry to hear that Dai.

What a shitty time you've had recently.

I can only offer the platitude of stay strong brother

My GP told me that she was on Sertraline, after she lost her husband. Then told me about a GP that went missing a few years back. He lost his wife to breast cancer and was left with two young children.
He gave up being a doctor, because he couldn't deal with women coming in to see him, with suspected breast cancer.

I'm on my second month of Sertraline.

 

[NumberAde]

We all have periods of stress in our lives. Emotional and psychological stress is sometimes more disturbing and painful, than physical stress.

My wife died in June, protesting that she had no symptoms, up until the week before she died. She argued with the consultants, refusing to accept that the investigative results were her results.
I was with her when a registrar at the Heath Hospital explained that she had 18 months left. She went into a coma three days later and slipped away four days after that.

She had non-smoking lung cancer, which doesn't always present with normal symptoms.

Within weeks of her death, we found out that three of her four brothers have cancer. Two with prostate, one blood related

The woman who spent hours advising and persuading my wife, to have all the investigations, is my sister who is a senior advanced clinical practioner, at a Midlands hospital.

Shortly before Christmas, she was told that she had stage 4 advanced cancer. She's worked in theatre on the very operation that she's now facing.
The surgeons, who are colleagues and friends, have told her that she has a 10% chance, of getting off the table alive. It's an 11-12 hour operation, with two teams of surgeons.

They can only attempt the operation after she's had two months of very aggressive chemotherapy. Then they've given her two months to get fit for the operation.

So to say that I've been a little stressed of late, is putting it mildly.

Really sorry to hear that Dai - just one of those events would be a challenge, to have so many at once is a nightmare.

 

[Worse]

Really sorry to hear that Dai - just one of those events would be a challenge, to have so many at once is a nightmare.

I was supposed to be dead in 1975. In Iran up in the mountains and I had what turned out to be, an inflamed appendix.

Through the British embassy we found a clinic that could deal with it and I was admitted. After an examination, by a retired professor from the NHS , who had been at St Barts Hospital in London. He confirmed that he would operate that night.

While waiting my appendix burst on the ward and I was rushed down for an emergency procedure. The operation was fine, but I had what today we refer to as, septicaemia. Back then it was just known as, blood poisoning.

Released after two weeks at the clinic, I went downhill physically, losing nearly half my body weight, with prolonged extreme fatigue.

I took a year off to recuperate.

After that I just took every day, every week and every month as a bonus. Nothing concentrates the mind so much, as being told that I was lucky to have survived.

 

[NumberAde]

I'm just going to say - I just had a really good chat with @Glos Blue - an absolute gent and it was a really good chat. Did I say it was a really good chat?

It has helped me sort a few things out mentally, I am in a better place than I was and I am going to try to stay there.

 

[Melvin Udal]

I can vouch for Glos, top bloke and he’ll help you no end
Just don’t mention strip clubs and nuggles.

Buf genuinely he’ll get point you in the right direction mate.

 

[Melvin Udal]

I'm just going to say - I just had a really good chat with @Glos Blue - an absolute gent and it was a really good chat. Did I say it was a really good chat?

It has helped me sort a few things out mentally, I am in a better place than I was and I am going to try to stay there.

Get a room.